Picture Taken 1/20/2003
“I thought of you today, but that’s nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too.
I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake of which I’ll never part. God has you in his arms, I have you in my heart.”
Today, we celebrate my sister’s life. She was taken from us 11 years ago and although I will never forget and I still remember it like it was yesterday, I have to reflect on these last 11 years with a smile on my face. I think about all that my family has overcome since we lost Sami and how much stronger of a family we are because of it. God is a mysterious man and I’ll never understand why he took such a beautiful being from us so soon, but I have to believe it was because he needed her to serve a bigger purpose. I am confident that I am where I am today because I’ve have Sami on my shoulder and in my heart. She has shaped me into the woman I am today and I am so thankful for that. My mom and I have grown so close and I know that is because of Sami. My mom has overcome more than any one person should deal with in a lifetime and is she is stronger than ever because she has Sami with her every day. I am grateful for the time I got with her. I never knew a 12 year old little girl could teach me so much about life and love. I celebrate her life today because that’s what she would have wanted. She is smiling down from Heaven today and I am smiling back at her.
I think about you daily. I often daydream what life would like if you were still here. I pretend that we would be roommates and best friends and still sharing and fighting over clothes. I look at my best friend and her relationship with her sister and think that would be us. I just want you to know how much I love you. I am so lucky to have you as my angel. There are times I get so angry and just want to hear your voice once more, but then the sun shines down on me and I know that you are here. Don’t worry Sami, I am taking care of the family, just as you would have. You’ve made me a better person, better friend and better daughter. You are the best little sister I’ve ever known. Thank you for continuing to be here for me. We will celebrate you today. Love you forever little sister! - Love, Jess
Forever in our hearts and forever in our thoughts.
Sami Rose Scannell 7.14.90-1.27.2003
I can’t believe we are already into the 3rd week of January. It doesn’t help that I spent almost the first 2 whole weeks sicker than a dog. That expression is weird, cause my dog is never sick so I’m not even sure what it means.. but yea starting the new year off sick is no fun! I’m happy to say that I finally feel like I’ve got 100% of my energy back. I feel happy and alive again!
Today I want to talk a little about loving yourself and being healthy! I have found in recent months that making sure you truly love yourself is how you will find the ultimate happiness. What makes me love myself is by working out and eating healthy. Doing both of those things makes me feel good and when I feel good I am happy! When I’m happy and have positive energy then I notice that work gets easier and the people in my life seem to be happier and drive off my energy. This just motivates me more. I want to lead my example so those closes to me can be positively effected by my happiness.
Here are few tips to live a healthier, happier lifestyle:
- create a workout routine and stick with it
- never plan more than a week out in advance, take your goals just one week at time
- plan your meals every week, prep ahead of time so your less likely to eat out when your in a hurry
- pack your own lunches
- cut the negativity
- follow people that inspire you to be a better you
My goals for the week are to workout every day with an active recovery day on sunday and to drink more water. I decided I wanted to try and go to crossfit all 5 days of the work week. I’m going skiing on Saturday so that will be my workout for Saturday and for my active recovery on Sunday I plan to either go to hot yoga or take my dog on a walk. Maybe both depending on how sore I am from my first day up skiing this year. My schedule has been all over the place this week, but I have managed to make it to crossfit both monday and tuesday and have mapped out the rest of my week so I can make sure to fit in a class each day. Now I just have to remember to drink more water! That seems to be a harder task, but I’m finding creative ways to remind myself to drink more water and I’ve started out every morning with drinking a full glass of water before I do anything else.
I can’t believe how much time has past since I’ve lost wrote a blog post. It’s crazy how the time just seems to zip by. I kept wanting too, but it just didn’t feel right to be one of those bloggers that only occasionally and randomly post things. I notice for me want to follow someones blog, I want someone who is consistent. Your basically following there life and when they just stop blogging all of sudden, you begin to wonder what happened to them and it gets annoying to check the blog and still see the same thing you read last month.
So guys.. new years resolution is to bring this blog back into ACTION! And to actually hopefully succeed past my original goals of having a blog. I want to use this blog has a way to reach people and share my passions with food and fitness and health. I hope to inspire others and answer questions. I want to show you that I’m human and I’m not always healthy and things come up and that doesn’t mean you just shut down your blog and not share those things.
So here is to a new year, a new blog and hopefully providing you with a little bit of joy, laughter and information along the way!
Lets start by sharing last years accomplishments in a nut shell.
- I completed 2 half marathons – one in napa valley and one in seattle
- I completed 1 full marathon – NYC BABY! Finally after 2 years of dedication, I did it!
- I traveled to Kauai, Maui, Vegas, Napa Valley and New York City
- I ran a lot, laughed a lot, cried some, overcame injuries, and learned a lot
I’m sure there is more that happened last year, but frankly I can’t remember and I’m just ready to move forward into this new year!
This year my focus is finding the balance in life. Focusing more on ME and what my loves and passions are. So let’s start by listing them out.
Here are my goals:
- build an even stronger fitness foundation
- stay focused and motivated to do more and be more at work
- eating clean
- finding the balance in a having a healthy lifestyle
- growing more in my faith
- growing more in love with myself and the people in my life
- to learn something new this year
- to try something new this year
- to run more for fun
- to run somewhere different or new
To start accomplishing these goals I have joined a crossfit gym and am currently taking part in a 60 day fitness/health challenge with a friend who just started her business with beachbody. The challenge is keeping me honest and helping me eat better. I want to see true results this year. I don’t want to yo-yo back in forth between diets or cleanses or eating strict. I want to truly make a lifestyle change that just happens because it’s who I am. We are 9 days in to the new year and I feel like I’ve made a good start.
I think you find that I’ll be talking quite bit about crossfit and the paleo lifestyle. These two seem to go hand in hand, kind of like peanut butter and jelly and it really isn’t just a “fab” or something people do because they think it’s “healthy”. It’s the real deal and I hope over time and through my blog post I can share the facts and the reasons why these two things are things to fall in love with.
Don’t worry I’ll still talk a lot about running I’m sure.. Just hit a hiatus with running since NYC Marathon and I’m trying to get back into, just seeming to have a hard time finding the time and the motivation. But my love for running has not gone away and It will become more of a focus for me in the near future.
I had a dream last night that today was day 5, but then I couldn’t at my whole30 diary and realized that it was only day 4. Which makes more sense why I woke up feeling like I had drank an entire bottle of wine the night before. I remember this for last time, Day 3 and 4 were the hardest as far as being tired, “hung over”, and cranky. The figuring out what to eat and plan my meals hasn’t been as hard this time around since I’m used to it and it comes more naturally for me than before so that’s made getting through these days a little easier. I know the cravings will get worse before they get better so I’ve made sure to stock up on easy snacks to get through the tough times. I finding that i’m really enjoying apple sauce with a dash of cinnamon and apples with raw almond butter when I’m feeling like a little pick me up. I think the weekend will be a little tough, but I have limited plans am going to focus most of my time on house chores, meal planning and running to keep me busy.
I only have 3 weekends until the seattle half marathon so this saturday i’ll run 11 miles in my training and I also have a 5k race on sunday. I’m excited for the race.. it’s the race I got my PR on last year so I’m hoping to beat it this year. My bf is also going to come watch which is exciting for me since he’s never been to any of my races before.
For my meals this week, I kept it pretty simple. I made a pork roast in my crock pot which has saved me when i’ve been too busy to cook and have been able to bring it for an easy lunch to work. I’ve also been digging this salmon and arugula salad that has snap peas, asparagus, avocado, onion, tomatoes and almonds in and i’ve just been fresh lemon juice and a little hot sauce on it and it’s been delicious! For breakfast I made a batch of pork sausage with onions and apples and just scramble a couple eggs into every morning. Perfect post workout breakfast meal. Larabars and dates have come in handy when i’ve gotten hungry but didn’t have time to make a full meal or just needed a little snack to get through an afternoon. They also make for perfect pre-run food as they don’t give me a side ache.
Just got to stay strong through the weekend and plan my meals ahead for next week and I should be looking good. I’m already noticing the changes and why I love the whole30 and can’t wait to keep seeing and feeling results.
Enjoy your weekend! I’ll give an update on how I did and how my runs go at the end of the weekend.
I did not get as mentally and physically prepared for the whole30 this weekend as I should have, but I’m still ready to start today and will just have to get through the first day not being as prepared until I can go to the store tonight to buy this week’s worth of meals.
Along with the whole30, here are some other goals I’ve set to go along with my plan.
- I will eat a full breakfast everyday.
- All electronics will be off by 10pm every week night.
- I will run 3x time a week and lift 3x a week
- I will rest on Sundays and stretch/foam roll after every run.
- I will do one outdoor activity a week.
- I will read two books in the 30 days.
Let the fun begin!